Haven't updated anything here forever, sorry. I barely ever come on here any more and I haven't taken an artistic photo in months and months and months.
I play poker for a meagre living now and spend my days watching tv and listening to post-rock.
Don't expect any art any time soon but you never know.

Peace

Bonjour, long time no update.

I've started and dropped out of a photography course since my last journal entry. That's about the only significant news.

Today I downloaded Firefox, it's brilliant. There's an add-on called StumbleUpon! which is basically a random page generator but you can make it randomly find videos or pictures or news etc. And you tailor it to your interests so that the random pages that pop up are actually ones you'd wanna look at. I spent all day today just watching random videos, found some brilliant ones as well:

A seriously amazing hand of poker: [link]

Funny and true video that puts the human race back in it's place: [link]

Spin. A really, really good short film. It's about 8 minutes long, if you don't watch it you're seriously missing out. It's brilliant: [link]

Great Norwegien commercial: [link]

and last but by no means least; A Recipe for Beat Boxing. [link] I laugh at that one every time I watch it. I don't know if that says more about me or the video.

Anyway, the reason I decided to update the journal was purely to say that I've just stumbled upon and amazing photographer called Nick Brandt. I think I've come across them before but I've forgotten so the excellence of their photography has re-amazed me. Check them out: [link]


Oh yeah, other major news was Radiohead's In Rainbows. What do people think of it?
I absolutely love it. It's genuinely been the only music I've listening to since it arrived in my inbox.

And finally, I've been awake for about 29 hours and I barely feel tired at all. Havn't done all day. It's weird.

Peace.

I thought I already wrote a journal about this, strange.
I have over 10,000 pageviews! Which is a bit of a success considering the amount of shite in my gallery.
Thanks to everyone who has looked at/faved/commented on my stuff. It's all very much appreciated.

This isn't really journal quality material but who cares, I want to share my mild outrage.

Those of you who know me or have attempted to communicate with me in any way know that I am really bloody shy and bad at talking to people. It would come as no surprise to you then that I often clam up in social situations. This results in me not talking much and generally trying to fade into the shadows.
This evening (for the second time) I have effectivly been accused of being arrogant because dumb people can't see the difference between arrogance and shyness. A few months ago Michaela's mum told Michaela that she thought I was arrogant because I don't talk much and because apparantly I eat loads of their food without asking (not actually the case. Before I was accused of this I asked Michaela every time I had some food and since being accused I barely eat any food from their house for fear that I will be accused once again). The most annoying thing about that was that Michaela's mum didn't have the guts to tell me to my face, the second most annoying thing was that she can't see the blindingly obvious fact that I am very shy, not arrogant (it seems hard for the two to co-exist).
Tonight my mum went to the pub with Brian and Chris and others. Chris is Brian's best man for the wedding next Friday and is Jane's friend. I've talked to him a few times when he's come round to BBQs etc.
When my mum came home she said to me (in a drunk kind of way) that on Friday when Chris comes round I should go up to him, shake his hand and say hello. I assumed that this was some sort of drunk rambling but she said that it was because when I was with Jane and she met Chris and Brian for lunch I hadnt said hello to Chris (I think I was having a very self-conscious, therefore shy, day). He apparantly said that I'm a man so I should speak to him like a man.
I find it offensive that he's basically saying that I don't speak to him like a man, I find it laughable because he is yet another person without the balls to actually tell me that they have a problem, another who has to go through a third party, and I find it pathetic because if forgetting to say hello is such a crime why the hell didn't he say hello to me at lunch instead of getting into a huff that I didny say hello to him!?
I think that I'm intentionally not going to say hello to him on Friday, maybe then he'll actually say something to me instead of going through other people. Or maybe he'll be man enough to say hi first.
Twat.


p.s Incase there is any confusion, Jane is my mum.

Don't you just hate the feeling you get when you realise that all the things you've been looking forward to have just happened and now the near future is filled with uncertainty and doubt?
Well I do.
For the last five months or so my mind has been dominated by the fact that Muse's Wembley gigs and Glastonbury were approaching so I had something to look forward to. Now that those things have been and gone all I have to look forward to is starting a course in college that I don't even know that I want to be starting.
I just wrote a big long journal about the things that are worrying me about the future but it was self-obsessed shit that no-one wants to read so I deleted it.
Thank me, I've just saved you five minutes.

p.s I don't even feel unhappy. I think this negativity has sprung from suddenly coming back to real, television-watching, insomnia suffering life from an activity-filled week. It'll pass.

p.p.s Fuck. That was such a pointless journal!